Friday, May 29, 2009

Chayil and an exploration of beauty

Today I was rummaging around online (can someone really rummage around online…?)for templates or images for this blog of mine. What do I want it to look like? Feel like, read like? I ended up on Flickr and typed in various, and now seemingly uncreative, search words such as landscape and color and colour. Not finding anything that was working for me I eventually typed BEAUTY in that little search box. I don’t know what I was hoping for with that, maybe artists’ depictions of beauty, more landscapes, more colors, skies. But what I noticed most were the images of women: smiling, young, old, naked, clothed, black, white, colorful, dark, dirty, clean, polished, working, third world, urban, plastic, country, all mixed in with images of landscapes and flowers. They were all beautiful.

This search brought me back to a previous exploration of women and beauty that I had done in preparing for a talk for high school girls a month or so ago.

"A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman--who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls” Proverbs 31:10

CHAYIL (pronounced khah'-yil) is the Hebrew word translated as virtue that is used in this popular biblical passage. If someone had asked me before my study what a “virtuous women” looks like, in a moment I probably would have described images of soft, serious, modest, kind but maybe even passive women. Honestly, all kind of nun-like. Surprisingly though, this

 word that has been translated to “virtue” means quite the opposite of anything else that I would naturally think of when “virtuous women” pictures are conjured up in my head. This Hebrew word chayil was usually saved to describe great forces and armies. So, instead of a push-over, a woman that is said to be “chayil” would possess a certain strength, might, and power. Think about that! What does that women look like?

That’s it.

And I still haven’t found a layout I love.


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

On the Loose

I always thought that my husband was the one of us with the passionate, roaming mind, full of imaginings swathed in his strong ideals. However now that school and ministry is waning and summer has given way, I’ve found myself awash in all kinds of lists of to do’s, wild dreams, and ambitious undertakings. It’s been two years since I’ve had this kind of freedom to imagine and honestly I’m driving myself crazy. How can I get anything accomplished with my mind on the loose like this? I feel like I can’t possibly rein it all in now that I’ve tasted the freedom of thinking and dreaming again. School makes me so much more logical than I could ever be without it, and that has been so healthy for me relationally, in my occupation, and in setting and achieving goals. But now that I’m on reprieve my mind has ricocheted in the other direction. No logic, no rules, boundaries or making sense of it: Hence the creation of this blog. Maybe with its help I can start to contain areas of my brain that are threatening to escape.